High & Crazy ~ Jade & Lara [ENG]

I'm a total Fuck up.
I don't know what to do.
What happened ?
I'll tell you everything in details.

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I'm waking up, I have a huge Black out.
Fuck.
I don't know where I am.
Fuck.
I don't know who is lying next to me.
Fuck.
That is my word. Because I'm a total Fuck up.

When will this stop ?
When will I realize this isn't good ?
I'll probably never realize that.
It's too bad, but I can live with it.
I've been drinking a lot these days.
I've been drinking way too much.
But I don't care because I'm me.
I am Johnny Walker.
The only one.
The best.

Let's go back to what I was explaining...
I just woke up without knowing where I am, this is Kinda strange... I don't feel very comfortable. Someone is sleeping next to me. I turn my head around and... OH MY GOD ! No ! This can't be true... She looks like... Like a child ! Help me please...
I don't wanna be a rapist. I'm not that kind of guy. I close my eyes, try to think about soumething else. Pictures are flashing through my mind, a big shit, some dead rats and... Grandma' Walker. That's refreshing. I'll remember that.
When I decide to open up my eyes again, Grandma' Walker is lying next to me... OH MY GOD THIS CAN'T BE TRUE ! Get me out of here... Pleaase ! I'm begging you, help me to get out of here.
Poor me... I'm becoming crazy. Grandma' Walker has been dead for years... Oh no... I know now. I'm dead... I close my eyes and try to think about nice things, Sand Unless, Jade Patterson and... A banana. When I open up my eyes again, I'm lying next to a huge banana.
Am I really dead ? What happened during my Black out ?
I don't know if I am really dead... I'll have to check one last person... I close my eyes and start thinking about her. I remember her cute face. And after breathing in one last time, I open up my eyes. Oh no... She's lying next to me, pale, white, cold... Dead.
Jennifer, my little sister, the first girl I truly loved more than I could imagine. I know now, I am really dead. But even where I am now, she is dead too. Why is life so hard with me ? What have I done ?
I scream, so hardly, so loudly, that the whole world can hear me. I'm sad, so fucking sad. Help me, please...
I'm trying to get up, but as soon as I get on my feet, I fall down and hit my head against some thing that wasn't supposed to be there.

After some minutes, I open up my eyes again. I'm lying on the floor of my own bedroom.
It was all just a nightmare. Thank god ! I try to get up, and sit on my bed. Oh my goodness, what happened to me ? I'm sitting in front of the mirror, and my face is totally fucked up.
I take a shower, afterwards, my face and my body are just a little less fucked up.
I don't feel good. I wanna drink, I wanna drug myself. Oh yeah, I love drinking and drugging myself *___* It's so freaking cool !
I wanna forget everything about my bad dream. EVERY, SINGLE, THING.
I decide to drink immediately, even if it is just one in the afternoon. One bottle of Vodka, two bottles of Vodka. It isn't enough, I don't feel happy... I decide to take a needle, and use heroïne. That's what I want right now, that's what I need... I think.
I took the needle, and putted it into my left arm. The Heroïne started to rush into my blood. Oh what a good feeling, it's been a long time, sweet lover of mine.
When I got completely high, I started to write Jade's name everywhere. And I totally mean everywhere. On the doors, on the walls, on the floor. In big Letters. And in my living-room, I wrote "Jade & Johnny forever" on the TV. That's when the bell rang...
The doorbell...

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And here I am, looking totally fucked up. I'm a mess ! A complete mess. But I'm dressed well. I always look good. Except for my face, I've got some scars on my face, and on my arms.
I'm wearing a simple white t-shirt and black trousers. I'm not wearing socks or shoes. And my hair isn't done.
But there is someone on the door... Waiting for me. HELP ME ! GET ME OUT OF HERE !
I'm wasted, totally. I'm drunk and high. It's cool, I'm happy now *__*
My hair is messy, but I don't care because I look good anyway. I decide to go to the door, and open up. Who could it be, at eight in the evening ? I put the usual smile on my face and open the door.
Fuck... Jade and... And... I can't put a name on that face.
I totally look and act like a fool. She can't come into my house.. I've got blood on my face -and on my white t-shirt by the way- And her name is written everywhere... But I smile anyway.
I can't get a sound out of my throat.
I'm lost...

anymore.

now.

2 hours later.

« JADE ! »

« Lindsaaaaay ? »

« Are you a thief ? =O »

« Jade … It's Lara. Lara. Do you remember me ? I am your friend … And … One thing you won't remember maybe : You have been drinking again and without me ! »

4 hours later.

« You promised to stop. »

Come on, Lara. It was the last time. I promise ! And … Don't you want one bottle of vodka ?

« You promise... as the last time. Again. Anyway. Put your clothes on. It's time to see your boyfriend. »

Lara, this is Johnny ! Johnny, this is Lara !

What did you do ? I came here to introduce you Lara and … Look at you ! Are you … Drunk ? Oh my god. What is all that blood ? Is it yours ? I hope ! Silly man ! Idiot ! What did you do ?

Hi everybody! I'm alive Cool

It's fantastic, isn't it? And guess what...
No, it's not my birthday... It's one day as an other.. But not really...
Why? Why? Why?
I don't know if I'm going to tell you... Mwahaha Twisted Evil

But as i'm happy today (Yes, truly, it's possible Cool

... eventhough I don't know why I am happy ><'), I'm gonna tell you what will happening:
Today, Jade and me are going to meet Jade's boyfriend.
Yes... It's not very exciting, it's not so fantastic.. I know. But I must do it. Because Jade is important for me. She's my friend. So I have to know her boyfriend. I'm happy for her. It's wonderful to be in love with someone. But... I just hope that he's not like a stupid gryffindor. I'll hate him, otherwise. Really. And I hope he's really in love with her... Otherwise, I'll kill him. I don't care if Jade is sad because he's dead. If he doesn't love her, he will break her heart and she'll drug herself and all others bads things and I'll be lonely for gouvern the Sahara...
That's not funny... Not funny at all.
So, now... I should wake up... So I wake and go to the kitchen (where is Brian? Brian is in the kitchen *slap*) to take my breakfast... Coooooffffeeee *-* I love coffee. Ahem so... Now I'm in the bathroom, I've taken my shower and now I'm brushing my teeth. Oh what's that?! It's a little bit... Black. And it's hurting when I touch it... Ahem.. I should go to the dentist... But I hate going to the dentist. I'm scared... Yes, Yes, me, Lara Demonic, I'm scared in front of a dentist... So what? There's nothing else to say.
Nothing, I said... YOU! SHUT UP! ><
What? You weren't talking? Yes... But you were thinking! It's the same for me! I'm legilimens so I can hear what you are thinking Cool

It's cool, isn't it? Yes, if I tell you that it is... It is. There's nothing else to say. Ahem... What? The dentist? Oh and fuck! I don't care! So now... Clothes! The terrible choice. But... I don't care too. I catch a clothe at random.. Oh no! Not this horrible dress! I hate it. So... I catch another one. Hum... Ok, they're blacks jeans. All's right. Now... T-shirt. At random again...
OH NO! What THIS t-shirt is doing here? THIS t-shirt is NOT supposed to be HERE. It's supposed to be... somewhere else ><'. It's red. I HATE that colour. Ahem.. Hum so another t-shirt.. A t-shirt... Black too, and it will be great. So... Now shoes. Black too.. I'm woman in black, today @_@ Classy Cool

Ahem.. So now.. I must go to Jade's House. 1, 2, 3... CRAC.
I'm in front of her manor. I push the door and scream.

« JADE ! »

« Liiiiindsay? »

... I'm not Lindsay. I'm Lara... What happened to her? Usually, she recognize my voice.. And Lindsay has a voice more high-pitched than mine.. Ahem.. I go upstairs...

« Are you a thief ? =O »

A thief? I'm not a thief! I'm Lara. Jade dosen't remember me.. Oh my god.. She is totally drunk. Again... Fuck.

« Jade … It's Lara. La-ra. Do you remember me ? I am your friend … And … One thing you won't remember maybe : You have been drinking again.. and without me ! »

She finished the vodka!!! So Jade... I'm so sorry to do that... But it's for your own good Very Happy

... And for my revenge because you've finished the vodka. I push her in the bathroom and turn on the shower. Cold. I'm sure, you feel better, Jade Very Happy

(And I don't care for your shoes)

I must look angry but actually, i'm laughing in my head. But.. She should stop drink as much.. It's not good for her health. I don't want her to die because of alcohol.. Eventhough I drink too ><' But not as much as her.

« You promised to stop. »

And It's true. She liiiiied! Buuuh! Lieeeeer! xD

« Come on, Lara. It was the last time. I promise ! And … Don't you want one bottle of vodka ? »

...
-Vodka *___*
-No. It's not good.
-But Vodka is just here! Next to me!
-Yes but I must see Jade's boyfriend
-I don't care, there is vodka *__*
-No. There isn't vodka anymore. Jade has already drunk it. All.
-Fuck. Sometimes.. I hate you, Jade @__@

« You promise... as the last time. Again. Anyway. Put your clothes on. It's time to see your boyfriend. »

Nah! I can resist, me. But after seeing her boyfriend, i'm going to buy a bottle of vodka, only for me. Only you and me, dear vodka *__* Ahem. I'm becoming mad.
So.. Let's go.

Ding dong.. We wait. Again.. Is he here? What is he doing? Jade dosen't look fine.. What's the problem...? What...
....
What is that? It can't be him. This guy has blood on his face and on his clothes. He looks totally fucked up but happy.. It can't be him.

« Who... »

« Lara, this is Johnny ! Johnny, this is Lara ! »

« Christ almightly... It's just not possible. »

Is he suicidal? Masochistic? Mad? Alcoholic? A drug-addict, maybe?
He's all you want excepted a normal person. Has he got a problem? Is he always like that..? I hope he isn't..
Jade takes her boyfriend apart. I look behind them. I can read Jade's name written on all the walls... Actually, he loves her. One positive point \o/
I look Jade, catch and take her appart. I close the door (Johnny is still inside).

« Are you totally mad? Who is this guy? He's totally.. Like you: Drunk. ><' Ahem.. Ok, all will be right. »

I don't hear Jade who's answering all my questions. I don't care. She's an adult, she does what she wants. And me too. That's why I'm opening the door. I smile, bring Johnny to bathroom with a Levicorpus, free him, and turn on shower. Water is cold... Poor Johnny. But it's for his own good Very Happy

« Okaaaaay! You feel better now, don't you? »

I smile again. A biiiiig smile Very Happy

Jade is behind me, she looks puzzled. I know, I'm unpredictable and exasperating. I go next to her and say with hapiness

« All's right now! Nice to meet you Johnny! As Jade said, I'm Lara. »

[Sorry, c'est nul ><' My english is veeery veeeery baaad.. Merci le dictionnaire moi j'dis xD]

When I opened the door and saw her, my girlfriend, my sweet darling, my Jade Patterson, I smiled. I must have been looking like a fool .. But I don't care ! Because, I actually am a fool. Isn't that great ? It's so fucking wonderful. I just feel soooooo happy that I wanna kiss everybody ! Especially Jade *____* Because I love her. I have never loved ... But now I do love ! I love Jade Patterson ! Everyone that'll visit my house today will notice that. It's written all over the walls.
Nothing will ever hurt me ! I'm like ... Superman ! Isn't that great ?! Well, no because I'll have to hide myself and stuff. I don't wanna hide .. I want to ... To run around naked ! Oh yeah, that would be sooooo much fun ! But every girl would fall in love with me ... I've got a huuuuge di... Arhem, excuse my, I'll never say that again. But it's true Cool

It's big and efficient. Arhem ... Okay okay I stop now.
The girl next to Jade .. Who is it ? A twin ? Nooo, they don't look alike. I make a step in her direction, my eyes are veeery small. I try to recognize her. I smile like a dumby. But, I can't recognize her. She's damn pretty though ! Arhem, but Jade is better ! Jade is .. Enchanting ! I loooove Jade ! She's simply the best.
But that girl .. She's looking at me. She doesn't seem to like me that much .. What have I done ? I'm just.. Not like other man, that's all ! She's racist. She doesn't like JOHNNY WALKER !

« Lara, this is Johnny ! Johnny, this is Lara ! »

Oooooh Jade ! I just love the sound of your voice. As soon as she speaks, I strech my arms in her direction. Lara says something and then .. She smacks the door in my face.
O__________o
Oh my god ...
I almost got my fingers stuck in the door ! I look at my fingers, with a big smile on my face. I look even dumber than before ... But that doesn't matter, I'm still happy !
The door opens again, I'm still looking at my fingers. They are beautiful, I've never noticed that you know ...
But .. WOOPS ! I'm caught up in the air ! WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME !
I knew it .. I definately am Superman ! I KNEEW IIIT !
I end up with a lot of ice cold water over my head. It's fucking cold ...

« Okaaaaay! You feel better now, don't you? »

No, I just feel wet ...

« All's right now! Nice to meet you Johnny! As Jade said, I'm Lara. »

As soon as the water dropped on my body, I started to take off my clothes. I took off my ripped shirt, my pants, my socks and started to take off my boxer shorts. That's when Jade put her hands on Lara her eyes. I didn't understand that part ...

« Isn't she allowed to see my perfect body ? »

I smile. I'm a fucking dumbass, I realize this. I look like a fool, I act like a fool .. I'm not normal.
I carry on smiling, and step out of the shower. I put a towel around my body and start drying my body. I definately feel better now.

« Nice to meet you Lara. As you might know, I'm Johnny, Johnny Walker. »

I finally look Jade in the eyes, and cover my left arm. Everybody can see that I have put a needle in my arm today. Oh my god, How can I be so stupid ?
I tell the girls to wait a second and go to my bedroom. I have to put on some clothing. I choose a beautiful t-shirt Jade bought me years ago -It still fits !- and some black trousers. A black Jean with my skull belt.
When I come back in the bathroom, I realize I haven't done my hair. That's not a problem, I never do it anyway. I look at the girls and notice we are ... In a bathroom. There are some condoms on the little desk that stands there. Hum .. Charming.
I don't want to stay here, there is a lot of strange stuff here. There is even a .. How can I explain it ? Hum .. There is a wing, but not a random wing. It's a .. Sex wing. It's special, I've already tried it with a "friend" of mine. But anyways. I don't want to stay here. I want to have sex ! Why not with both of the girls ? Huuum ... No, just kiddin'
Actually no, I would love to have sex right now. And as I said, I'm efficient, I can satisfy both of the women. But no, that isn't correct. I shouldn't even be thinking about stuff like that ! I love Jade ...

« Shall we go to the ... Dining room ? »

I take Jades' hand, and kiss her. The perfect kiss, as always ! And then I guide the both girls to my dining-room. It's a mess, Jades' name is written EVERYWHERE. I'm crazy .. Oh my god. I shouldn't have been using drugs, It doesn't help me...
They both look at me as if I'm a mad man... As if .. I mean, I am a mad man but usually no one notices that, and that used to make me happy .. Now everyone knows !
Everyone knows I'm completely fucked up, everyone knows I'm a mad man, eveyone know I'm crazy, everyone knows I'm out of my mind, everyone just knows !
How can I change that ? I don't want everyone to know ! It's horrible to live like that .. Just horrible. Jade might leave me because Lara wouldn't want her to be with someone like this ... Poor me, I'll stay all alone again. Poor me ...
I sit down at the table and hide my face behind my hands. I don't want anyone to see me ... I'm a mess ...

« I'm truly sorry .. My house is a little ... Let's say messy ! »

I put a smile on my face again and take a chair for Jade, I hold it and wait until she sits down to push the chair. Like a real gentleman. Because I am !

« Anyone wants a drink ? »

I stand up and open the closet. Now they can only see the "Ade" written on the little door .. Haha, I opened the alcohol closet. I close it and open the other one. Pineapple juice, orange juice, apple juice, ananas juice, etc ... All kinds of juices are in there. And Coke, and Limonade, etc ... Etc...

It's not possible. It couldn't be him.

« ...mad? Who is this guy? He's totally.. Like you: Drunk. ><' Ahem.. Ok, all will be right. »

« This guy is … The neighbour ! He likes alcohol, yes... I can't do something ! We must wait for Johnny... Allright. I must assume the bloody stupid things that my boyfriend does. I ever did some stupidities too... Like today ! But he's nice and cute and sexy and... »

« ...he's got a huge... A huge cat ! Yeah, and he does some things with him. And he's got a bear. I love his bear =')... »

« Isn't she allowed to see my perfect body ? »

« No, she is not ! Only me, dumb-ass ! »

« Don't need to cover it. »

« Shall we go to the ... Dining room ? »

« I'm truly sorry .. My house is a little ... Let's say messy ! »

« Anyone wants a drink ? »

« Only water for me. »

« See ? I do some efforts... You should do the same... »